{"id":2301,"date":"2014-03-08T08:19:26","date_gmt":"2014-03-08T14:19:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.crosseyedlife.com\/?p=2020"},"modified":"2014-03-08T08:19:26","modified_gmt":"2014-03-08T14:19:26","slug":"im-ready-to-fight","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.crosseyedlife.com\/index.php\/2014\/03\/08\/im-ready-to-fight\/","title":{"rendered":"I&#039;m ready to fight"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Today has been marked by a little bit of panic.<\/p>\n<p>Nothing overt, no obvious danger, just something in the air. And, I know what it is\u2026<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve already caught myself staring into space, catching my breath and grinding my teeth.<\/p>\n<p>You see, today my youngest son becomes a teenager, but that alone is not really the source of the feeling.<\/p>\n<p>Some tell me that I should really be concerned, having two teenagers in the house is going to be a war. I don&#8217;t think I agree.<a href=\"http:\/\/www.crosseyedlife.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/03\/20140308-082005.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.crosseyedlife.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/03\/20140308-082005.jpg\" alt=\"20140308-082005.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-full\" align=\"right\"\/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been warned to hold on tightly because time will go so fast I&#8217;ll miss it. Well, making the most of every opportunity is wise, but I don&#8217;t think that&#8217;s my worry.<\/p>\n<p>Moms tell me with tear-filled eyes that you&#8217;ll never get your babies back. They mourn over the loss of a baby to cuddle with\u2026 believe me, that&#8217;s not my problem.<\/p>\n<p>Dads tell me I should get a second job, because the amount of food that&#8217;s going to be consumed will break the bank. Actually, I kind of believe that one a little.<\/p>\n<p>With all of the good, bad and ugly advice that you are given, unsolicited I might add, as a parent\u2026 it&#8217;s sometimes hard to filter out what should be held onto versus what should be tossed.<\/p>\n<p>However, on this occasion, I&#8217;m pretty sure I know the source of my consternation.<\/p>\n<p>I am not longing for bygone days, wishing that Noah and Nathan were just entering kindergarten again so I could relive those precious moment years. Been there, done it, have the t-shirt. <\/p>\n<p>I am not overwhelmed with fears that time will slip by so quickly I&#8217;ll miss something. We&#8217;re taking lots of pictures.<\/p>\n<p>I am not suffering from stress due to the costs of raising a teenager and setting them in the world on their own. I know how to use the words &#8220;Get a job.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I am not struggling under the weight of a horrific culture, unseen peer pressures, inevitable empty nest, or any other thing that gets blogged on a regular basis.<\/p>\n<p>In fact, my &#8220;fear&#8221; isn&#8217;t even really a fear at all. It&#8217;s an adrenaline shot.<\/p>\n<p>If you&#8217;ve ever known that moment right before a fight, you know when you&#8217;re squaring off in the parking lot and staring each other down&#8230; that&#8217;s the feeling.<\/p>\n<p>But, it&#8217;s not squaring up against my sons, but with them!<\/p>\n<p>I have spent the last decade and a half hovering over them, protecting them, leveling a path before them. And today, I do not mourn the transition that they are going through.<\/p>\n<p>My boys have become young men, both of them now. And many of the battles that will be fought now, I will no longer fight for them, I will fight with them.<\/p>\n<p>Where I had been standing between them and the things that might do them harm, now we will stand back to back fighting for what we believe and standing up together.<\/p>\n<p>With two boys that are now young men I am moving in a new direction of fighting &#8216;for&#8217; my family, to fighting &#8216;from&#8217; my family. <\/p>\n<p>I know they&#8217;re not completely mature, and there is still growth to come\u2026 but, my boys are now men. And, that jittery feeling I have is one of anticipation.<\/p>\n<p>The battle lines are drawn, and the conflict is clear. No longer do my boys need to hide behind their father, but side-by-side, swords drawn in the strength of the Lord has given them it&#8217;s time for them to become the warriors and the men I know they are.<\/p>\n<p>I am more than proud to call these boys, young men. <\/p>\n<p>I am honored to share my last name with them. <\/p>\n<p>And I am itchin&#8217; to hit the battlefield with them.<\/p>\n<p>Their mother and I have taught them the Scriptures as best we can. We have modeled out a life of faith to the best degree that we know how. And with everything that we could, we have trained them up in the way they should go.<\/p>\n<p>I know we&#8217;ve made plenty of mistakes, but we&#8217;ve given them our absolute best. <\/p>\n<p>Now it&#8217;s time\u2026 <\/p>\n<p>Happy birthday Nathan. <\/p>\n<p>Welcome to the fight Noah.<\/p>\n<p>Let&#8217;s do this&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Psalm 119:9 &#8220;How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word.&#8221;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today has been marked by a little bit of panic. Nothing overt, no obvious danger, just something in the air. And, I know what it is\u2026 I&#8217;ve already caught myself staring into space, catching my breath and grinding my teeth. 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